There’s two prayers beginner Christians pray. “Make me patient” is one, and when people realize how self centered we really are, they often pray, “Lord, break me.”
Don’t pray those prayers.
Life will go horribly wrong for both prayers.
The Lord teaches us patience slowly, through trials and adversity.
If you pray for the Lord to break you… He will.
The loss of a job is the usual response. Some people seem to contract diseases or severe medical conditions. Others have relatives or spouses die.
These things must come in life. And often, the Lord sends them at the time to shape you. If you ask for it, He may deliver a lot at once. It’s like when you have a child who wants to try something you know they can’t do, but you want to teach them about their limitations, you let them try it, just to show them that caution sometimes is the best route.
So, the Lord knows you’re not ready for what you’re asking. But He loves you enough to honor the request, probably dulled down to a fraction of what He could release upon you.
Every Christian will face tribulation in this life. That’s a fact. And sometimes the Lord is using the heat of it to temper you into the tool He requires of you.
And often, for the patience prayer, the lord just lets you have one or two days where He stops protecting you from a lot of the minor things that can come your way. You think, “I’m having a bad day! Two arguments at work, I got in trouble, my car wouldn’t start…”
You could have woken up that morning with paralysis. You could have had a heart attack or stroke. You could have been in a car accident that took your legs off. Things really could be a million times worse. And the Lord will teach you that lesson. By the time you’re middle aged, you’ll be thanking the Lord for everything, because now you’re aware that the Lord is under no obligation to make sure you get a jelly donut every day, perfect coffee, a bonus from the boss, etc.