I was thinking this morning about things I miss.
One thing I miss was I used to have a Hebrew word processor. It let me write in Yiddish and Hebrew. I can’t remember if it was DavkaWriter or Dagesh (I think it was Dagesh, which you can’t even get anymore).
I kept thinking the whole time I had it was that it was a $19.95 program for $109.00, which is common with a lot of Jewish software. The Bavli Talmud CD Rom was the finest $39.95 program for $295.99. No kidding, minimal search capabilities. Minimal tools. Terrible.
But I do miss Dagesh.
I miss my calendars from Chabad, with its weird little indecipherable codes on it! So I’d call my Rabbi up and ask him, “What’s today?” He’d usually answer me fairly impatiently, because a nice person he wasn’t. (that’s normal sentencing structure by the way, if you speak Yiddish).
I sometimes miss speaking Yiddish. Someone saw me yesterday and asked me how I was, and my answer was “Ich bin Ein bissele krenk” without thinking. If you speak German, you’ll kind of understand that. Hint – Bischen and Bissele mean the same thing.
Among Chassids, the answer to “how are you today?” was “Baruch Hashem” (praise God). Which meant I usually had to ask them a second time to find out how they were, and they’d get uncomfortable when I did it! “Gut, gut, shayne dank.”
I miss my little pocket Tehillas Hashem prayer book that I kept in my long black coat pocket. Had the psalms in it, too. My Rabbi gave me that. The prayer book, not the coat.
I kind of miss having the Kitzer Shulchan Aruch. I’d use that and the Chofetz Chayim’s list of commandments you could keep today.
Fortunately, I accepted Jesus Christ as my Lord and Saviour, and don’t need any of that anymore. I just get nostalgic for memories.
I sometimes miss the days when Bible study meant dragging out a 27 lb. Volume of Strongs’ a King James Bible, and a notebook. And of course, everyone would tell me I needed to get Jay Greene’s Interlinear. But those were $50 and I couldn’t afford one.
I sometimes miss when I got my first modern PC, which was a Compaq Presario, which had the oddest programs on it – some kind of program with Microsoft Works, but it had a feature where you could include things in a binder. To this day, I have no idea what that means.
And I had Quickverse 3 on it. And I got an extra $25 one day, and I trotted out to Eggheads, and I bought a mouse pad or something, and I saw “LOGOS 2.0” there, so I bought it. I know that the Bible programs I have today are much better, but I get nostalgic for that.
I sometimes miss these things. Would I go back to them? No. But sometimes the happiness in life is remembering when times were bone crushingly hard, and you had a little luxury here and there, and being thankful for those things.
That’s when we see the hand of God in our lives, guiding us, taking care of us, driving us.